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AD Brown Girl... Self Portrait Even? just this evening

Wouldn't think i'd be the girl with all the tattoos...  but started the year with 1... its now 7. if only it wasn't so late in the night... i'd give all the stories. but a few are growing. need renewal. and there are more spaces on my body in need... think i'm done at 10. :) goodnight

I fantasiiiiize about you

Starts when you come home from work.
I'm in the doorway putting away our linens. you come behind me... breathe me in.. Squeeze my hip

Then there you go... your hand comes across my chest, reach in my shirt and tease.  You kiss me on my neck in the exact perfect spot... tugging at my skin a little. Let out your moan- the one I know is your call. I reach for you... I whisper to you how much I've missed you throughout our day and turn to finally look into your face.
hello.
Kisses and I nestle myself into you to finally breathe you in. you're home.
Your head lands in my hair... you pull me deeper into you.

Walk with me... This is our bed.
I've made every pore.. every cell of my body that much softer only for you. Every Inch of me... sweeter... for you.  let me take off our clothes.  Kiss your ink.  Your arms...those fingertips.
Whisper to me... tell me where you want my hands... these lips. my tongue.

This looks Good. Take over me.
I kiss your collarbone, working my way right down the middle of your chest. Your stomach is beautiful. I use my fingers and trace the mark on your rib. Fuck How I want you...Every piece of you stimulates me.
Past your navel. here I am. You taste... indescribable.
Thank you
for letting my tongue feel you and my fingers enter you.
You pull me up. kiss me like no other's been able to. Perfectly. Teasing. Deeply. Nibbling. Sucking.
You have the sexiest moan Ive ever heard, making me thankful that my ears are here in this, right now.
Turn me over. You rule me.
you mimic every move I've made upon you.
There's that moan.
you tease my lips above and below. I suck your fingers and you take them away.
Diving into me.
Your tongue flicks. Licks. sucks. laps.
you have me in awe. breathless.
I must've blacked out. There's your strap.
You plunge right in. I lift my back so you can grab hold of me while i move into you.
You're deeper. I squeeze your spine. bite your shoulder
Neighbors probably think our names must be awhhh fuck gatdamn
i return to whimpering... you feel so good... i whisper your name...
Papi mmmmm
Flip me again.
I ride you
Kissing. Touching. Sucking and rubbing you all over again.
This is perfect.
Everything I've needed.
I hope I've pleased you.
You writhe under me
We cum. We collapse. Searching to find our breath.
The bed's a mess.  The breeze is heaven. This is where we should be
We fade. Hours pass...
whispers... silence... sleep

Hey Human

30 Day Challenge. On this day you write a letter to:

Day 6 — A stranger.


Hey Human... 


i found something beautiful about you. 


You sat there... Laughter full and lively. Words sprinkled with wisdom and beauty as you caught up with your friend... 


i found a few things beautiful about you...


those cheekbones. that smile. your humor. yup, in those few moments...


Something else... the universe wanted me to find more things... 


you adored your life wherever you came from... but excited to explore the streets of Chicago while you were here.
you loved whoever was back home... but again, excited to live in loves you had here... 


Ya know... there was plenty beautiful about you... 


how you carried yourself... you reminded me of one i already love. 


hope you're enjoying chicago... 


dammit you're beautiful.

Dear Crush

30 Day Challenge- On this day you write a letter to:

Day 2 — Your crush.

When I think about you... its like that cliche shit... hear songs... and i think of how they tie into you, how i feel for you.. the dreams i have... what i wanna do to, with, and for  you.  When i thought of writing this letter to you, a song sprung up... (guess 'cause it also happens to have you, the subject) in its title.  I thought of Goapele's Crushed Out:


You know I'm crushed out on you and you alone... If I thought you had my number I'd stay home by the phone
Day and night I sit and wait for you to call me
But only time will show how far this can go

Your voice it comforts me... Sweet and raspy tone of love
It trails me into dreams.
I wanna wake up to it... Full blast
Your name alone
Gives me a rush
What a feeling
I can feel it in my bones, A spirit, I'm craving in my soul
You could feel it all, But you don't even know
That I'm crushed out on you and you alone...

I'm longing for the space and time to chill with you... Thinking of the ways that I could keep my cool
But this brown eyed girl  And brown eyed boi
Time stood still And passed us by
Cause baby I, I've been waiting for a little time
Oh and you were so beautiful and this is sure
You're my kind of guy
If I had a type of guy, I'd say it's you
So don't let them bring you down, Cause right about now I like having you around
And if it's real that's where hearts resides
And I'm crushed out on you and you alone
If you think of me Half as much as I do you
Confide in me Lets play for keeps
And I can tell you all the things, I longed to say
The future wants
We'll find a way, And we can let it go
And I'm crushed out on you and you alone... 


It summed up much of how I feel...
You have me comfortable with dreaming. and optimism... 
You make me softer than any one's ever been able to manage. You prompt me to send msgs... make calls.. feel uneasy if i don't speak with you enough throughout the day, even more so before i rest my head for the next.  You make me considerate... and giddy and me.
I appreciate that you accept my quirks and call me on my shit. I even appreciate that I've learned about jealousy during this, because I've wanted you that badly , letting my own ego chime in that i could be better for you than... others, lol But i could, dammit! 
I revel in the fact That you know yourself and understand where you need to go, what you must challenge yourself in doing to learn more of you and your place in this world.  I adore our quirks and i enjoy being able to be our voice of reason when our babyppos' plans get a lil outlandish :)
i am amazed by your resilience and how much positivity that comes out of you against that.  
Uhm Your smile, that laugh are contagious, even when i don't get to see it... the memory's vivid enough to cause me to do the same.
Since you've been away... absence has made this heart grow fond... can ya tell?  I replay many of our talks... I received your letter from our plans to write... it was the best thing ever, well to receive.  I wished I was yours already so that I'd be home... preparing your welcome and making it the most comfortable perfect place for you to return.  That every piece was placed in a way that let you know that everyday while you were gone... I aimed at making something special for you.  That i used all my "i miss you" energy into something constructive as a "gift" for you


If we get the chance to go further... I know we'll have challenges... but I've been through a bit as I'm sure you have as well... so we'll be fine.  There are some super minor adjustments to be made, but also ones I've experienced before so i think i can help it be smooth. Distance has given us an advantage in getting to know a bit before pursuit.  You're unlike my past... May seem small to you... but you holding my interest.. this strongly... even through communication spurts... is BIG. you've been out of sight and ear... and you still remain vividly on my mind... that's gotta count for somethin right?
I  didn't want to keep quiet... but I also didn't wanna tell too much right away.... So maybe this letter will be discovered by you on your own if/whenever you decide to visit this blog... I may send it to you out of nowhere... This may be a memento that I offer to you because we're celebrating something... :)
You shared a plan... a dream with me... and being the Aries I am... I couldn't help but imagine myself fitting in the puzzle.  That's it! You fit! I haven't had to change me except for be more of me and stop feeling so... so guarded about the rest of me that others seemed to have asked for... complained i didn't give.  you're enhancing me... I only hope that you feel that I'm trying to do the same for you...


You've made me a romantic... isn't that somethin? 


I miss you.. Cant wait to use every single sense i have wen we're together. 

Tonight I dream... and because I've shared this right before... I'll meet you in a few.

Content with ConTent P3

Nearing the End...

Entertained C/oB, N/T, and R/J
CoB just... just no.
N/T... possible but another youth... and distance... we leave that all alone, the banter though i tell ya, FUN shit.
R/J love the man... he was before C/T we were just not ready to be that grown up. With what i feel right now... i think those ideas may go in hibernation yet again...

always ready for me... me not for them... ready for the next... or ready for *this* i hope I'm ready for this...

C/T a relationship that could've led to what my future could've been right now. major adult stuff. lol family and life planning... shared accounts and policies. Instead we woke up and said we are not gettin any younger so we might as well NOT do it. He's in Love... i hope he's admitting it and telling her daily. he and i throw efforts at friendship between us... i hope we get there. Cuz romantic love had gone well before our ending but platonic love came right in comfortably for me. I think at times i still want privileges of our past... knowing what's happening with family and such... accomplishments of work... experiences or cool shit he's experienced in his new home... stuff about his dog... etc. I was hurt to find out through word of mouth about the official start of that relationship. his sister's nuptials... i didn't even have the chance to say congrats. wishing his family happy birthdays and the like... but that would make me seem like i still wanted to be with him or something right? so i guess its good he's made those cutoffs, lol Next

A/F one from the block... I've fought and fight with feelings for him... from him introducing Anthony Hamilton to me... and finding him in his car, mid day... summer time... completing a crossword puzzle. both of the sexiest things I've seen him do. things that i smack myself and say be cool tivi a la Andre 3 stacks. MMMMph if i could just... nope. stoppin myself again. he's good. I'm good.

J/D i like him... he knows I'm no good for any of him though. that's excellent :)

whew... that's that.

Besides... in all acts of honesty... she wins. I want her to and I will let her. :)

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R/E a blast from the past. like PreSchool Past. we reconnected thanks to FB. woooow. We'd both grown up and acknowledged the 20+years that had passed since we were classmates. Admired one another's beauty, talked about the letter people and our future plans. I found him cute, but i wasn't hell bent on making anything happen there. I was upfront about K/L and he was upfront about who he was. His was unattractive so I decided to keep that cool. His thought processes at times were bothersome even more reason to not entertain. So i hadn't. Come to find out he's rather creepy. Sees me when i never see him... shares his sightings... but doesn't just come and say hi. Tries to be clever in creating bootycall opportunities... but all i see is preschool and the unfortunate standard i held him up to that he falls short of with the corny and typical.

Intriguing... N/B. i cant say much here... but HANDSOME if either of us had time or enough interest... he could get it whenever i was single. he could have it if he wanted to take me out of single, lol His energy, passion, brain, spirit, smile, humor, ears... all work. but we share those things... and they bring us around different paths, ones that often don't meet at the same spots for us to hang together.

D/P, we clicked mighty early, humor wine and jokes... all highly enjoyed. and stamina to boot. he carried where K/L fell short (damn K/L was everywhere huh?) he wanted me... but he could see that i belonged to K/L and he also didn't care to share. He called me MC... and MsBeBusy... cuz all he thought was damn she fine but she party all the time. He just happened to have me when summer was here... festivals, live music and the brunt end of where K/L was lacking and I, as an Aries went ahead and compensated. So i stayed out and about, came home to cook, sleep and clean, everything else could be done out in the world. we stopped cuz he knew he wanted me, I wasn't ready. I wanted him but i wasn't ready... so in that we strayed. chiming in here and there.

R/H young. but the pieces were nice.

P/W cute lil dude. I appreciated his nignorance and intelligence. he balanced them well. he wanted from me what he didn't really deserve though. and I held no reserves in expressing that. I didn't bend any rules. practiced my no's and was sarcastic when he didn't want me to be. I'm a rebel.

R/P & M/I friends that I've been intimate with over the years... uhm i like sex. lol will always hold spaces greater than those randoms well not randoms... can't call em unimportants cuz they were important enough to be intimate with... even if it was just that once out of curiosity. they just have a solid place here. and i think we've all done it just becase we can. aint earth shattering, aint cold pizza... just a happy inbetween, lol

crushed on R/N, T/A a boy... a girl... *spark*

Dated W/D, M/C, C/J nice but all plateaued(ing) nothing to push me to the brink of making much more happen *sigh*

Fallen somewhere special with D/N :) that's a blog in itself... know that I've never felt the way I feel for her, for anyone else. She makes me softer... more thoughtful. more considerate... to the point that I wanted to write and scream about her for you all earlier. sprung enough without even gettin any.... and that's where Ive been able to keep myself at bay. She's gone away making someone more amazing of herself... so we write and i miss her dreadfully... I cannot wait to see her and I've fallen back into long distance. If she wants me... yup she could have me. heehee nuff said.

Part 3...

Content with ConTent

the English language... man...

So... it's been awhile since I'd published words for you.. for me... more than anyone... all I'll say and finally closer to ND's style of chronicling...

These past few months have been a whirlwind. Ive just recently made it to exactly one year since I've returned home. there've been... hmmm... much that i kept quiet about:

K/L the roller coaster boy you've seen him in blogs past. started out last summer as just takin the plunge, being whoever we needed to be for one another. I set no expectations upon him especially when it came to monogamy. He was cool til he saw that I was stickin to that. He told me he loved me. Me not realizing this meant he wanted the games to stop. He wanted an earnest relationship with me. He wanted to have just me. I let myself get clouded in the selfish of being newly single.. not greedy and flaunting to him and the world that i'm single. but the freedoms of not having to answer to anyone. going out with my girls as much as I wanted. going out alone as much as i wanted. no calls of check in and the like. we went up and down. passion... in physical and love... in separation and anger. passion. i felt somethin heavy for him but i look back and it was not love. if i focused, maybe i could've found myself there but the universe gave me reasons as to why i didn't. he finally, after 3 years asked to become my boyfriend. right before summer time Chicago. Means nothing, but I'm just sayin.. i think he chose to try and cuff me so that no one else would find themselves spending time with me during the season. The man couldn't even answer why he wanted to be with me. so i gave him the answer of no. the others...

Intimacy... inbetweens: J/D. Jay. M/S.

I grew this crush on another... a friend of friends, I placed him on a pedestal. He was quirky. a lil off. and soft. I placed him above because he was a friend that i didn't think deserved or could even handle the way i treated some men. so I avoided him, knowing that i was still very much so an asshole. I wanted to wait until I was worthy. Come to find out he was pretty similar to others ive dated. A/B. It was nice. He's thought about from time to time... but he also happened to have the same birthday of K/Land sign of C/T. Fuckin Aquarians. I'm leavin em alone. and that's whats keepin me from him now and until.

N/W this one... was the first man ever to make me think that polyamory was in my blood. I loved my boyfriend, him and another friend or 2. I didn't need to have physical intimacy with all of them. but i loved pieces about them that i wish i could put in a bottle and pour down my ultimate whoever. Iono I'll feel safe to say I love him. He would never want to share me if we ever let us be... so i may not ever give the right kinda energy to making that happen.

K/B. My Interracial Romp. So many apprehensions. and he helped confirm the one that bothered me most. Being some one's exotic. He managed to sprinkle in too many sexual undertones into our conversation. now not to say he was the one at fault. I apologize for being so comfortable in my sexuality. that i have no qualms speaking of the one night stands I've done, the sex I've had, the partners I've experienced etc. but just because i answered questions freely doenst mean im all about givin it up freely cuz you asked. He would've been fun for the books but he lost me. c'est la vie.

part 2...