Facebook- untagging a person in your photos... removing things that associate you and that person to a relationship together... anxiety about changing "status" because that means it's really over... waiting for when one person will finally change theirs so you know it's ok to change yours. waiting... especially since i was the one that ultimately caused the breakup. afraid to announce any new romantic prospects because it may be seen as hurtful... disregarding another's feelings. Not leaving comments on one another's page... when all i wanna say is "All hails, official now, Congratulations! You're a Doctor, wish you the best"T Mobile- changing my fave five and being confused as to who and how the hell someone else took the place of that person, when i was the one who manually changed the person in the list. not used to not seeing the heart that represented that person when they were in the list. deleting the contact from both the fave five list and my sim card... but still vaguely remembering the number. Remembering how everyone used to speak of the handicap everyone has when it comes to remembering numbers thanks to cell phones and contact lists. Feeling odd that the habit of sending morning txt msgs to him is now no longer part of my routine... and that it is now someone else.
Myspace- the same angst in changing status and any references to the relationship in my profile. i should delete that profile... anyone still on myspace like that? who'da thunk facebook would finally be taking over the universe...
Yahoo- being the connector throughout the day to whom i now "spend" my morning communication with.
Blogger- being abusively open. saying what might be Sea Salt to open wounds. saying i've opened up to new prospects and they give just enough of what i can handle now. biting my nails that he doesn't visit this site because i've posted this link on... Facebook
Full Circle... Ha.
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